That’s right, only one week and one day till The BF comes back! Yay! That’s 8 days for those of you playing at home *wink
I apologise for my lack of blog posts… I have actually been doing *shudders* work at work lately (what a crock!) and by the time I get home I am not interested in even looking at a computer screen. Though I happily browse blogs on my iPhone, I wouldn’t dare type a post on there.
As I mentioned in my last post, I sent the BF a little list of products to get me from Sephora in Poland… But as it turns out, they hardly stocked any of them! I only got Benefit They’re Real Mascara. Apparently it’s a full size tube and a little travel one too. Cute! No Naked palette for me. I’ll have to buy it online! Oh the horror!
The BF is leaving Poland now (like right now) and going to Amsterdam for a few days… then he flies to Korea, where the time difference is a lot more palatable. While he was in Poland we were pretty much completely opposite. He would stay up late (like 1am) to say good morning to me, and I would be saying good morning to him as I was traveling home from work.
We hit some relationship turbulence while he was away. For some unknown reason I started talking about how I wanted a baby. Yes. A baby. And then he started getting a bit funny and, let’s face it, freaked out. I have brought up children before though. I didn’t (and don’t) want to be in a relationship where we had different goals in life. I want a family (big time) and I ain’t getting any younger. And back then, he said he wanted that too.
It doesn’t sound as though he has changed his mind entirely, but he has been ‘between jobs’ for a really long time. A real victim of unemployment, if you will. He has had some contracting work, but he doesn’t want just any job, he wants a job in the field that he studied in. I don’t really get that (higher education drop-out over here) and thought he should just get a job. Any job. Stacking shelves at Coles New World. Something. Anything. So, that’s contributing to him not being ready for a family, which is fair enough.
But then… Oh yes, but then… He tells me he applied for a job in Poland. “Just to see what would happen.” Like what Lily from How I met Your Mother did applying for the art school in another state just to see if they would accept her). He got an interview, which he didn’t go to, but he said how in Melbourne, it’s like 20 applications with only 1 interview… and in Poland he was asked for an interview on his one and only job application. So, then he started saying he wanted to move to Poland. Move there. What the?! He said the only thing he has to look forward to in Melbourne is me. Which is sweet, but eeeeeek.
Then he started feeling really down and saying that he felt like he had been wasting my time and that I’d probably be married with babies by now if it wasn’t for him. I didn’t really know what to say. After reassuring him (etc) I was feeling pretty worried about it all. His response? I’ll be back soon. What does that even mean?! He later said he was having a bad day, feeling bad about not having a job and then me asking about marriage and babies. Yep, I asked about marriage too.
I don’t want him to move to Poland. I don’t think I could leave Melbourne.