♡ HALFWAY! ♡ Weeks Fourteen, Fifteen & Sixteen Results!!

Hello Kittens!!

I have been slack again! *hangs head*

I have been feeling really great about myself lately. Definitely walking with a bounce in my step.

I have hit the halfway mark in my 'journey' (anyone else cringe at this word?).

14th week~ 0.6 kilo
15th week~ 1.4 kilos
16th week~ 1.6 kilos

And my complete loss so far is:

25.2 kilos

Whoo Hoo!!

'Yay' indeed!

Now this is scary... Very Scary but here is my Before and Halfway photo.

Before and Halfway!
And that's 'little' Inky!! Remember when he was a little puppy??!
Oh and I am wearing the Kardashian Leggings

I cannot believe how big I let myself get and though you can't see it in that first pic... but I was beaming from ear to ear- I thought I looked okay *sad face*. I am really proud of what I have achieved so far... It does still scare me that I have another 23 kilos to go to get to my lowest ever... And truth be told I should really go lower... Maybe lose another 31 kilos! But I will be crossing that bridge when I get there! The program I am on is designed to find my metabolic equilibrium... So my body will tell me when it's ready to eat my food... At the moment I am happily cruising down the scales!

I am loving the fact that I can finally fit into some of my old wardrobe... And I even purchased a pair of Kardashian leather look leggings... I LOVE THEM! I have now gotten 2 more pairs!! Quite reasonably priced at $32.95 at a Chemist near my work! They appear to be really good quality and I have gotten a few compliments when I wear them!

I have been online shopping like a mad woman!! And just spending money like a mad woman too!

One of my dear friends jetted off to NYC (jealous!! It's true what they say, once you've been there you need to go back!) and she asked me if I wanted her to get me anything. At first I said 'oh, no thank you' as I still have a massive stash since I went in December, but then I thought about it and may have looked at Sephora... Well then I was asking her if the offer still stood! She said yes! Yay!

Then I created this list and screen captured it, worked out currency conversion and was ready to send it to her when I noticed 2 horrible words... Online Exclusive!! Noooooooooooooo! So I revised my list but I still reallllllly wanted the online exclusive!! Isn't that always the way??? So, I created an online order and decided to use HopShopGo to get the Sephora package to me.

*Breathe, Breathe* It is on board with driver as I rapidly tap my keyboard!!!! So excited I could squeal like a little piggy!!!!!

My next post is a comparison between Mecca, Tarazz (the Aussie 'portal' to Sephora) and Sephora itself + HopShopGo! Plus pics of my goodies!!

♡Missy

♡ Weeks Ten, Eleven, Twelve & Thirteen Results!!

Wow! How slack am I?!!

I am sure you have all been desperately waiting for me to reveal my results... {crickets, lols}

I have been pretty busy... And had been having a bit of a rough time lately {awws}.

Some trouble with my sister was the main culprit... with her ending up in Intensive Care. All due to a self-inflicted type illness, so my sympathy level is quite low.

As a result not only did I look after the kids for a few nights, I was basically asked (well, more of an order) to clean her house "for Mother's Day', I really wanted to remind her that she actually isn't my Mother, but I bit my tongue as usual and basically I just couldn't be bothered arguing about it. I think my face said it all, but she was all 'I need help' etc... I did as much as I felt comfortable with, but seriously I have had it up to here with her *raises hand to neck height, which is pointless as you can't see*

When I cleaned up I found lots of drug paraphernalia, which I told her I was removing... She agreed. I also found heaps of empty and half-drunk cans of alcohol! Terrible. It was in the bathroom for crying out loud!!!! I also got rid of all that. Cleaned her fridge out... Including yogurt from 2010. 2010! Stuck my gloved hand in a sink of goodness-knows-how-old water. Gloved or not, ewww times a million.

I mean why should I help her when she wont even help herself?!! I have already done so much for her!! The real tragedy are the kids! But what can I do?!!

I thought that when I had to move out and she was being *hell* to live with... Just being a terrible human in general... I thought 'yep, this is her rock bottom... She'll pick herself up for sure!!'

But nope. It wasn't. Hopefully this 'near death' experience is (her words, not mine!)... And she finally learns. But hmm, I don't know. Already heard her talking about drinking etc. I have nothing against drinking, but I truly think she is allergic. She can not handle it. Anyway, enough about her!!

I also had an argument with my Mum. Which was awful. She was drunk (what's with my family?) and she just went off at me. Fully out of nowhere. It really bowled me over and I got very defensive and it really brought me back to when I was living with my sister. I hate being yelled at and I cannot handle it. So... Mmm. Had a rough time.

My Poor Bender ended up at the vet!!!!! I thought he had dislocated his shoulder, but it was actually a cat attack wound!!! My poor boy!!! 2 needles later (and the Sunday consult fee!) and he is on the mend. Still limping a little, but much better. He also had a very high fever!! {sad face}

Poor Dino walso had a trip to the Vet! He had a tummy issue... And he wouldn't get up for walks. I was very worried as it is so unlike him. One needle and a weeks worth of antibiotics (and another Sunday consult fee!), he was literally back to his old self that same night!!

Spent $400 at the Vet over 2 weekends!! I love my babies so it was all worth it... I hate to think they are suffering.

I wish I could make Bender be an indoor cat, but he is free spirit and he has been an outdoor cat all his life! I am hoping I can get him and Smokey into a stay-indoors-at-night routine but we'll see.

Bender and Dino are also overweight. Poor Smokey is probably underweight. Bender even eats the dog food!! Little piggy!!

Speaking of piggies...

On to my weight loss results.

The last time I checked in on here my total loss was 16 kilos... and now?

10th week~ 1.1 kilo
11th week~ 1.5 kilos
12th week~ 2 kilos
13th week 1 kilo

And my complete loss so far is:

21.6 kilos

Pretty good!! So far my weekly average has been 1.6 kgs, so I am pretty impressed.

As you can imagine I am feeling pretty good. It's a nice feeling knowing I have broken to 20 kilos barrier. I am nearly the halfway mark {sigh} but I am still very focused and motivated!!

♡Missy

Bottling emotions, until the Bottle POPS

Hey Guys…

I had a really stressfully emotional night last night.

Me
(source)

You see, my sister has been unwell and if you’ve read of my posts about family you would see I had a lot of issues with her. Long story short is that I eventually moved out- but I had already suffered a lot. I felt like I was always taking a backseat in my family because others would be so effed up that there was never time for me.

My Dad has 10 children (4 different mums)… So it makes sense that some of us had to disappear. We are all spread out a lot. Especially me. I am the most spread out of us all. My sister is 12 years older than me and my little brother is 6 years younger- everyone else is 1 or 2 years apart. You’d almost think I would have had a lot of attention. But I didn’t. Or maybe I did but I was too young to remember.

Anyway, since I moved out (I lived with my Dad and my sister and her 2 sons), I haven’t had much to do with my sister. She is going through something and I don’t want to be part of it- it’s destructive. She uses me and does nothing to help her situation. My dad would call me now and then just say hello. It started to dawn on me that almost every call was to update me on my sister after he put in the obligatory 'small chat'. ‘Oh she’s not doing well’ ‘when was the last time you saw her’ ‘ she’s very skinny‘ ‘oh she has so much on her plate.’ Every call was under a minute long and most of that was him telling me about my sister.

I can’t really explain and I probably sound like I am evil, but he has always put her problems onto me. Since I was at least 19. She had a nervous breakdown and I was the one who had to help her through it. Last night was the final straw. He asked me when was the last time I saw her. Well, it was that weekend when I babysat my nephew so she could go to a night club. Call me crazy, but she can’t be too sick if she can go to a nightclub. Anyway, I don’t want my post here to be about her, but after I got off the phone I felt really low. My dad puts all this guilt on me as though I am supposed to do something about her problems when she won’t even help herself. I started toying with the idea of telling him how I felt. I have never done that. I bottle my emotions, keep them deep down inside. I knew I couldn’t ‘speak’ to him, as I get too emotional and make no sense. So, I wrote him a letter (to send electronically).

I cried while I wrote it. I asked him what it was he wanted me to do about my sister, and didn’t he notice that the last time I ‘helped’ my life was turned upside down and no one cared and it didn’t help her, it just hurt me. I told him he only sees what she wants him to see and if he only knew the truth. I told him how I now know how our family works… ‘he who screams loudest gets the attention’- I am not like that. I told him I don’t want him to call me only to tell me how badly she is doing. I told how all my life I have reached out to him, only to be pushed aside. I have always felt like a nuisance… Just something that everyone had to find something to do with. I was in the way. I used to stay at my step-mums on weekends just so I could see him when he would visit them… I used to go to his work after to school just to see him, even if it was only to spend time with him as he would drive me home. If I hadn’t made those efforts, I wouldn’t have seen him. I have never told him how all this has made me feel. I said all I want is for you to not call me to remind me how less important I am than everyone else.

I did feel like a weight had been lifted off me just writing it all down. I was unsure of sending the message. I know it would make him sad… but I honestly can’t handle it anymore. It’s every time I talk to him. I sent the message. I told him I didn’t want to talk about it, I just wanted him to know how I felt and how it makes me feel when he tried to guilt me. I did receive a reply this morning. It was pretty okay and he barely mentioned my sister, only to say ‘he didn’t know’ and that ‘maybe’ he was ‘blind about some things’… Better than nothing. He also said we needed to talk. I don’t want to. To be honest, since I moved out I gave up. I decided that he had made his choice and my sisters’ problems were more important than anyone’s and most definitely more important than my happiness. I decided I wasn’t going to continue to reach out anymore to him, only to get burned again. I also think is why I am still mad at her. I blame her for what has happened to my relationship with my dad. I know he thinks less of me for walking away. He said to me ‘I thought you were stronger than that’… I said ‘well, you were wrong’ and walked away.

Anyway, I had knots in my stomach… and had trouble getting to sleep. When I woke up I was okay, until I remembered what had happened. Back to feeling queasy. I then checked my phone and saw the message from my dad and had a nice cry in the shower.

I am a coward but I don’t care anyway. I am who I am and I can’t help that. This is the first time I ever told my Dad how I really feel, usually I just put on a brave face and pretend I am okay. When my dad tries to call me again, I won’t be answering. It’ll probably be tonight but I’m just not ready. I have really exposed my true feelings and it’s scary. I feel raw and exposed.

Sorry for the post. But I need to get it all out. I saw a psychologist a few years ago, but it was when I was quite depressed and seeing the doctor and going to work 3 times a week were literally all I did. The rest of the time I was in bed, at home and ordering takeaway food. Unfortunately the half-rebated Medicare appointments were all used up before I could even get to my family issues.        

Thanks for reading if you did. 

♡Missy

Le Questionnaire

I found this Questionnaire on someone's blog (can't remember who, sorry) and it looked like fun!

1. What's a nickname only your family calls you?

Well, Missy is my main nickname.

From my Dad; I also get called “Ris" which is the middle of my real name, which also turned into "Rissole". Then Ris/Rissole started getting used for other people within my family as well… like when they are bratty or naughty. Like as a nice way of calling someone an ass or an a**hole… so that’s disconcerting. Haha. I like to say I am the Original Rissole, though. 

From my Mum; I get called "Little Doll" or Lil Doll (which I have tattooed on my wrist- I also have Missy on my hip).

One of my sister's exes used to have matching names for me and her... She was Organ Arse and I was Thunder Bum. I wonder why? hahahaha. 

2. What's a weird habit of yours?

Ummmm, I probably have lots and lots. I guess one is that a hoard a lot of stuff around with me everywhere I go and yet never use it. Like I carry a bag full of paperwork with me, but I constantly avoid doing anything about it (bills, letters etc- most remain unopened).

I also carry around a million and one lipstick/lip balm/gloss product… Guess who rarely ‘touches up’ during the day? Moi.

(p.s- I think this is a mental issue… *nervous laughs*)

3. Do you have any weird phobias? 

Erm, I used to HATE sharing… Well I still do. I won’t share anything that you actually use on yourself or that touches your lips (lip gloss/straws/etc).

I won’t share drinks or food. I mean, okay, you can have a chip, but don’t touch anything that I want to eat… I might not even say anything about it at the time, but I probably wont eat it now, so thanks a lot. An actual bite of something that I would also be biting into? Hells no. It doesn't matter how much I love you. It just ain't happening. I’d buy you one for yourself before letting that happen.

It was a big issue at school, when everyone was sharing beauty products, and sharing drinks/lunch or whatever and I’d just be like ‘no’. I don’t like that it is labelled as not sharing… but hmm I guess that’s what it is. 

4. What's a song you secretly LOVE to blast & belt out when you're alone?

haha. Lots of songs. Too many to note. Any ballad from Mariah, Whitney... heck even Celine! (lols). I will also belt out some Adele. I fancy myself as a bit of a singer. I am a pro at SingStar and real-life Karaoke! 

5. What's one of your biggest pet peeves? 

Just rude people to sum it up. I think everyone gets peeved at rude people.

People who aren't conscientious...  you know? Who only think of themselves. I am very aware of most people around me and will do my best not to put them out or cause myself to be in their way or anything like that. 

I also dislike people who swallow loudly. I hate hearing the gulping noise. You can do it quietly, I don't understand why some people are SO loud about it.

My boss does this and it makes me want to cry. I hate it. I understand that sometimes you can accidentally make a noise (Even I do it too sometimes) but he makes really loud GULPING noises with each and every sip. Drives. Me. Crazy!  

6.  What's one of your nervous habits? 

Gosh I don’t know. Probably being overly nice… My hands used to shake if I had to use them in front of someone  but I think that’s a little better now.

7.  What side of the bed do you sleep on? 

I sleep on the right side of the bed at the moment… but it’s always the side furthest away from the entrance to the room. So, in my last house it was the left.

8.  What was your first stuffed animal & its name? 

It’s a teddy bear I got in hospital when I was born. His name is Teddy.

God I love that bear. 

He has leather pads on his paws and he is just the bomb. He has a nail polish mark on his leg from when I was playing hospital and he was the injured party… dammit. I actually don’t know who gave him to me… but I adore him. 

9.  What's the drink you ALWAYS order at starbucks? 

Skim milk Caramel Frappuccino, no whip and with Java chips, please!

10.  What's the beauty rule you preach.. but never ACTUALLY practice? 

Never go to sleep without washing your face. I even include the use of face wipes as a no-no… it just isn’t the same as washing in the bathroom. But heck, I've been guilty of falling asleep without washing my face properly. I have some seriously beautiful skincare but there is a routine to it (involving a hot cloth steam and then a scrub) and when I am dog tired, I just cannot be bothered. 

11.  Which way do you face in the shower?

I face towards the shower. Funny, I've never even thought of it before. If I have to do something I turn and face away but mainly I face the shower head. I do a lot of twisting and turning in the shower, I can tell you that. 

12.  Do you have any 'weird' body 'skills'? 

not really. I can make a noise like Donald Duck… It’s the trick I do for kids… It gets the laughs… Not so much now that Donald isn't so famous, but back in the day it was all about Mickey and friends and my Donald impression was all the rage.

13.  What's your favorite 'comfort food'/food that's 'bad' but you love to eat it anyways?

I have too many comfort foods… Anything sweet and/or cheesy is me.

14.  What's a phrase or exclamation you always say? 

“I’ll tell you that for free” talking about something lame and saying it is "all the rage"- (see Q12)… Either of them usually gets the laughs… especially the first time, but I will use them time and time again.
“JJ” is another one… followed by ‘just joking or joshing” (I actually say them both with the "or" haha).
I also have a habit of mispronouncing words... or like Mike Myers says in "View from the Top" "Putting the wrong emPHAsis on the wrong sylLABle"... That also gets the laughs when people realise what I am actually saying.

15.  Time to sleep- what are you ACTUALLY wearing? 

Undies… maybe. Sometimes I go the full PJ, other times completely in the buff. I just go with however I’m feeling.

If you do this Questionnaire too, please let me know. I'd love to read it!

♡Missy

What's in my bag! Tale of a bag lady/mobile hoarder

Well hello there!

I hope you are all fine and dandy.

As promised my 'What's in my Bag?' post! Hooray! I just know you have all been dying to see what's in my Bag! haha

That's a lot of stuff to carry day in-  day out

This is the contents of my bag tipped out on my work desk. No holds barred!!

Oh I just realised one thing is missing! My Phone. Of course my phone is usually in my bag!!

Now, let it be known I have significantly lightened my load since I took these 'what's in my bag' pics and I'm pretty much none the wiser. I carry around so much stuff in fear I might need it. I rarely do. I'm just silly.

Doing this post opened my eyes! So many lip glosses... and guess who rarely even bothers applying it???

The details;

❤ Hiding in the pile at the back there are some naughty cigarettes (which I am totes on a mission to QUIT- I don't smoke much so it shouldn't be too hard, I just actually have to commit to doing it),
❤ 2 makeup powders still in their boxes from NYC,
❤ Pink container with cute black bow. Thank you DAISO!
❤ My Debit card- not in my wallet- worst habit ever! Not only can I never find it, but I can barely read the numbers on that baby they've rubbed off so much- luckily I know them off by heart anyway!
❤ Pink glasses case- which hold my prescription sunglasses (I never wear them anyway and I never take my actual glasses off, so I am no longer carrying this around),
❤ Quite a few lip glosses/balms,
❤ My precious sweeteners (hermestas),
❤ My crystal nail file- with pink bling that my Mum got me for Christmas for a startling $2.00!!

❤ More lip glosses and lipsticks,
❤ Makeup brush,
❤ My lighter in its' brown case,
❤ That white circle thing with the red dot is a measuring tape- I have NO idea why it is in my bag!,
❤ A black pen,
❤ That hot pink container in the bottom left is some nail polish remover wipes... they are the BOMB,
❤ Rimmel stay matte powder (in 01 transparent),
❤ A mystery item in a box- in the center of the pic- more on that below,
❤ My "e-cigarette" to help me quit smoking- let's face it, I got it cos it was pink!, it mimics smoking with flavoured steam... Yum
❤ Some coinage that was literally just floating around my bag,
❤ And those two bling things at the bottom sorta-right area are earplug decorations for my phone- I never use them as I use my earphones too much and they just a hassle, oh and my actual earphones intertwined throughout all the stuff too.

Last little section; 

❤ More lip prods,
❤ My Juicy Couture wallet,
❤ My keys; Oh and that pink bird not only cute but it's also a whistle- safety first, Ladies! Though I always have trouble getting to my keys in the depths of my bag so I doubt I'd be able to get to it in an emergency situation anyway, but if I ever feel uneasy I usually find my keys and carry them in my hand with one pointed out between my fingers as a weapon of sorts, LOL,
❤ Flash drive memory do-whackers (pink naturally),
❤ Scrunched up receipt,
❤ A business card for a travel agent (I already have itchy feet!),
❤ That plastic black thing in the bottom left is a handy dandy phone stand- I have never used it, but I might some day.

Ooh, the fun stuff! My make up!
Row 1; Rimmel Stay Matte powder, NARS powder foundation in Barcelona, TOO FACED bronzer in Chocolate Soleil
Row 2: MAC lipstick, YSL glossy stain in #18, YSL glossy stain in #17, YSL sheer candy in #8, L'Oreal pink rose balm, Sally Hanson moisturising lip balm, unknown brand but it has cute packaging in a nice peachy shade, MAC viva glam nicki lipglass, L'Oreal golden vanilla balm, L'Oreal nudy pink balm, Clinique Cubby Stick in mighty mimosa
And my Laura Mercier Blending brush

The mystery item in the box:
Anyone know what this says?? I only got it because I adore the packaging. Look, the little character has a cat on her head! Love it!... I assumed it was a lip balm, but I think it might actually be a solid perfume of sorts... It smells very strongly of perfume- too much so for a balm, yet when I put some on my wrist it wears away very quickly!! It's a mystery!!!!

 My awesome personalised lighter holder. This was given to me by my nephew's dad (the one who passed away). It went missing for about 6 years... then my sister found it in an old jacket pocket in her wardrobe right after he died. I am really happy to have it back. I really love it. And it's even more special now. My sister was apprehensive to give it back to me- which I understand but um it has my name on it and I have been complaining about losing it for years. years. And she had it all along. Shifty minx! She had one too which surprise surprise she lost even before she 'lost' mine!

My medicine box (Daiso $2.80)! Mostly just Nurofen (I get headaches that turn into migraines) and those BIG tablets are to be added to water for re-hydration. The pink ones are actually for period pain, I got them because they are pink and therefore pretty and I figured pills are pills (pain pills anyway) but hey, I'm no Doctor!!

Behold;

Gastrolyte rehydration tablets!!! 

I have used these in their sachet form for headaches, but these tablets are handy as. I took these to NYC and they made the flight home almost pleasurable! I forgot I had them on the way there (too excited) but on the way back I felt very dehydrated and felt a headache coming on. This was a lifesaver and I highly recommend them for air travel!


In other highly related news, I purchased a new bag!!!



It's actually probably the most I have ever spent on a bag! I am pretty darn thrifty and when I saw this bag on eBay I was all over it like a rash.... But I got outbid at the last second- I bid right at the end- and I nearly cried!!! I had pretty much told myself the bag was mine. I was so very disappointed.

I noticed the buyer had only 5 feedbacks, so I messaged the seller saying 'hey... if you have any trouble with the buyer I'd be happy to buy it as a 2nd chance offer'... Well a week or so later, the seller messaged me as the buyer fell through and she offered it to me.

Yay!

I wanted it DESPERATELY. But there was one issue... she assumed I meant not through eBay, but I didn't. I meant a second chance offer through eBay-- but I didn't want to rock the boat and miss out on the bag again so I did my first unlawful eBay purchase and with a bank transfer no less! It was damn scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had been in email conversation with her for almost a week (while the buyer wasn't paying) and felt that she seemed pretty genuine.

It took forever to come! (okay 3 days... but from Syd to Melb, come on! I wanted it next day!)

I only just got it yesterday and truth be told it's a little more roughed up than I expected- some of the hardware shows wear... but all in all, I am pretty happy with it. The leather is super soft and I love me some Juicy Couture!!!

It would have been $348 (US) to buy new and the seller said it was "as new" and I got it for half price (or thereabouts) so I thought it seemed like a good deal... but like I said, she's a bit roughed up *sigh. I am super rough with my bags though, so  I probably would have wrecked it right away anyway, plus it's SOLD OUT! The leather is super soft and it smells delicious  I'm using it today for the first time. Even though it's actually quite small, it holds everything I need. So, yay!

♡Missy

Oh yeh…

That's right. I must have forgotten I had a blog?!

I get so caught up reading (and occasionally commenting on) other bloggies that I neglect my own. It’s funny cos I am constantly seeing things or buying things and being all ‘I am so going to blog about that!” and then... nothing.  

I have been pretty busy and yet I haven’t really done anything, so to speak.

Some things that have been going on;

♡ I have put on so much weight, it’s scary. I keep trying to jump back on the healthy/clean eating bus but fall flat on my bum when I see something yummy.

♡ I have been spending way way wayyyy too much money.

♡ I have bought a whole  new hair care system (Nioxin)

♡ My younger brother asked me a month or so ago if I wanted to go to the US with him and our little sister to go see the Rolling Stones, and of course I was all heck to the yeh (whose says no)… and then he said it was his shout, and I was like ‘say what?’… Can you believe it? I sure didn’t. I was of course super excited but thought it probably wouldn’t happen and that he was in dream land dancing with the pixies.

♡ ... yet somehow in 1 week and 4 days I will be on a plane to NYC!

♡ I am not exactly a Rolling Stones fan, so… I have massive guilt about that, but I don’t think my little sister is either. And who would turn down a trip to New York?! I have been brushing up bigtime though. turns out I do like some of their songs.

♡ At first I thought the trip was to Atlanta, Georgia… Don’t ask me why… but short story there was discussion and subsequent confusion (on my part) regarding a casino. I thought he said Atlanta but he was talking about Atlantic City which is NOT in Georgia. Derp. It’s New Jersey, which as we all know was devastated by the Super Storm, so I don’t know if the casino trips are still in the works (my brother is Poker player).

♡ So, did I mention I am going to NYC?! We are staying right near Times Square! Eeek. I can’t believe how soon it is?! 11 days!

♡ My boss is freaking out about me going away. It’s only for 10 days. Chill, Broseph. {side note; my phone just beeped, like the quietest most tranquil notification available and it blew his mind "Ahhh, what was that"... Calm down. end note}

♡ Being that the trip is so soon and was kind of a surprise, I have not saved any money. That sucks. I also don’t have credit cards (cannot. be. trusted)… So I don’t think I will be buying much, even though I want to. I want to so bad. Haha.

So more on that soon- Including my wish list abroad, my travel/packing plan, plane survival plan and what I want to see in NYC!

I also plan to blog about, among other things, my new Nioxin hair care plan (which I haven’t started), my new skincare plan (which I have started and may I just say ‘hello soft skin’), my makeup hauls, my Asian goodies (ie: Daiso) hauls, my ever growing collection of Glasshouse candles, et al .

I missed you blog!

{le me indulging in a Starbucks Gingerbread Frappuccino. I love Gingerbread!}

{couldn’t resist buying some Travel books at lunchtime today… So excited!}

I cannot believe how lucky I am to being going to NYC.

♡Missy

Cute Blog Award

The rules:

Thank the blogger that gave you the award and link back to their blog.

Share 7 facts about yourself.

Pass the award of to 10 other bloggers and let them know.

So, firstly thank you very much to sothisisglamour for the nomination, and onto the seven facts about my favourite subject. Me. Haha.

• I am terrible with money. It kind of gives me anxiety at times and I often suffer from Buyers’ Remorse but it doesn’t stop me from impulse buying. All. The. Time.
• It’s not like I impulsively buy expensive stuff though, I am a Bargain Hunter through and through and jusssttt love sniffing out a bargain!
• I have been in a ‘hold up’. I used to work at the Pokies (just saying that sounds funny) and was once held up by Imaginary Syringe Point. Working in St Kilda though, I did not take the threat lightly and believed he had a syringe. He came up behind me and I felt something cold and metal-like pressed against my elbow. He only took like $250. Not only did I have to give a million statements, go through countless mug shots at the St Kilda Road Police HQ (hilarity by the way, very entertaining), I also had to go to court! Turns out the guy they had nabbed wasn’t the guy and I completely turned the Prosecution’s case upside down. It was clear they were purely after a conviction, even if it wasn’t guy. Tsk Tsk.
• Funnily enough, I also had to appear in Court again that same week… This time I was the defendant. I had racked up a lot (thousands of $$$s worth) of Citylink Toll fines and had tried contesting them to no avail, so they took me to court. I had a not-so-great lawyer (he is deceased now, so I won’t speak ill of the dead), but I lost. The lawyer told me I had to plead guilty… then the Magistrate said how he disagreed with the law but because I had pleaded guilty he had to enforce the minimum, which was $1,400.00. Ahh nuts.
• My Step-Mother has early onset Alzheimer’s. It’s really awful. She only just turned 56 and she’s changed so much. My little brother and sister are only 24 and nearly 21, respectively.
• A little fact in the spirit of the Anzacs… After my Pop died (last year) my mum asked me to look him up on Ancestry.com. It said he had served in the army in WW2... Only we never knew. It was definitely his name listed but he had never mentioned it. Ever. We knew his brother served and we have a framed picture of him in his uniform. My Pop could have enlisted his name, so his brother could serve, or maybe he went to war, now we’ll never know! It’s our family mystery (that and the one about our heritage). After reading all the horrible things his ‘team’ (I don’t know the right words, platoon, battalion?) went though, it would be little wonder he never mentioned it. According to the Army records most of his group didn’t make it back home alive. I was devastated to think my Pop carried all of that on his shoulders and never told his family.
• After my most recent one, I now have 5 tattoos. When people see the one on my wrist they often remark ‘wow, I would never pick you to have a tattoo’… I can’t blame them. After all, I am just so sweet and innocent looking. Haha.

Wow, it is remarkably hard to come up with 7 facts about yourself!!

I will cop out of the nominating part of this award as most, if not all, of the blogs I follow have already taken part. Hooray for awards! 

♡Missy

Twinkling on Tuesdays

Hey Sweets!

I went for my x ray last night and even though I inspected the images with my Doctor goggles on, I had no idea what I was looking at. I am a dork and even google-imaged ‘x ray of broken toe’ haha. No help. Soo, I guess it mustn’t be like broken-broken. Otherwise I would have seen that, surely…

It could be ‘cracked,’ which is what my Doctor suggested initially. The x ray guy said I wouldn’t be able to walk if it was broken… So, um, I guess that’s that. Haha. Oh fun fact, I saw the big toe being referred to as the grand toe. How cute! I had never heard/seen that before.

In other news, I wish to make a concerted effort to blog more often. I am so freakin’ lazy. In nearly every aspect of my life. It’s annoying. Mental note: I need to do something about that. Maybe later. LOLS. Yes, I procrastinate too. Like a boss. 

I have all these grandiose ideas of what I want to do in so many areas of my life, yet I never do anything. What’s wrong with me?! 

I have so many photos and pictures from online stashed (read: cluttering my desktop, another thing on my to-do list) yet I never blog about anything. It’s like I can only concentrate on one thing at a time. At the moment that one thing is getting back to my goal weight. Which is silly… All I am doing is eating right… Not brain surgery really. 

Another thing I have procrastinated big time on is my little eBay business I had going on awhile back. It was selling Pandora type beads. Put it this way, I have about $10,000 worth of beads (at selling price that is) sitting in a jewellery box on my bedroom floor. I could use that money for stuff!! I love stuff! One thing that ‘set me back’ was that my computer died. I refused to sell until I had myself a pink Sony Vaio. Checked that off my list. Then I wanted a pink Sony camera with that macro business to take “better” photos of the beads/charms. Got that too… I took like 30 photos and thought I sucked… Then I got some lighting to help me out… NEVER ONCE USED IT. All still in the box. Gahhhhh! The trend is wearing off now! Hahaha. And eBay has made it near impossible to sell (they made it ‘illegal’ to put ‘will fit Pandora’ in the listing title).

Anyhoo, I just went on a tangent about how badly I procrastinate and how I want to blog more. I named this post ‘Twinkling Tuesdays’ with the thought that I’d continue that every week. Well, all you got was me blubbering on. Sorry. 

Here you go… Some Love/Hate

Loving that my weight loss is finally getting noticed. Yesterday my boss said ‘You can tell you’ve lost weight’. Thanks! Considering it was only last week, when I was…

Hating that a co-worker who I was sympathising with as he yabbered on about how he wanted to join the gym to lose weight and then put both of us in the same boat with the comment ‘our problem is, we eat too much’ OUCH!

Hating my sore toe, but

Loving that people have been showing kindness on Public Transport and on my travels to and fro’.

Hating that I have been spending all my monies on eBay, yet

Loving the bargains and super-duper sniping I have accomplished! Will blog about, I swear! We’re talking leather shorts, perfumes for me and perfumes for he, a leather bag, gorgeous jewellery box and a cute pink and sequin coin purse.

Loving the awesome Essie Nail polishes I scored from OZSALE. $5 each? Getouttahere! I have never used Essie, but the colours are oh so me!

Hating that I overlooked one of the packages and it got sent to my old address. Meaning I have trek all the way there to retrieve it…

Loving that I can use that as an excuse to see my baby Bender!!

Loving that I have a date night planned with the BF tonight… Tight arse Tuesday movie (21 Jump Street, EXCITED). I haven’t seen him since last weekend!

Hating that I couldn’t work out how to redeem my Hoyts reward points online… Only to see that 21 Jump Street is showing on an Xreme screen at 9pm, thus costing more points. Rudeness. I have exactly enough for 2x Tuesday tickets. 

Until tomorrow...

♡Missy

♡ Week Nine ♡

 Hi peeps!

Ahh, I have made it through to week nine of my lifestyle change…

This week, I lost 1 kilo! Yay. I only have 3.6kilos to go to get to my goal! Yay!

I purchased a jacket on the eBay, which arrived today at work… I can get it on, but it’s too small *sighhhhh… So, I have a feeling I might drop my goal weight further. 

Here are my measurement results:

5 inches from my waist (narrowest point)

3 inches from my hips (widest point)

And

4 inches from my bust. 

Oh and I was reading PolkaDotPearls Blog on Friday that made me rethink my bra/cup size… Over the weekend I checked my measurements. I wear a B Cup at present and according to my calculation I should be a D!! (P.S- woo hoo, if that is true). I have 2 vouchers to use at La Senza, and I am SO testing out some D Cups!!!

My toe is so sore!!! I went to the Docs on the weekend and am due for an x-ray tonight. Eeek. It has been hurting even more since visiting the Doc… So, that’s great. I got some drugs, and they appear to make the pain worse?! RUDE. 

My Doc said I would have to go back to him to get the results (in 2 days) but hopefully the x-ray operator will be able to tell me if it is broken. I am on one (1) crutch today. It’s actually making walking easier. I can’t stand to walk on the side of my foot anymore… It makes the pain much worse. 

In happy chappy news, my Essie nail polish Ozsale order arrived today! Eeeek!!! Only 2 out of 3 arrived though… Then I checked online and somehow, magically, I managed to get it sent to my old house!! Grrrrr! I have 2 mini sets and 6 full size polishes here, and there are 3 more full sized ones waiting for me! Exciting. The colours are all SO me!! I will do a post on them once they are all reunited!

Oh, and on the topic of nail polishes… I am so rude. I have been meaning to say a big thank you to Miss Directions for the prize I won on her blog a while back. I have enough nail polish to last me 1000 years! Again, separate blog post. 

Oh and on the topic of competitions... I also won one off the lovely Kiki Chaos, like 10 thousand years ago... I will POST on that!

I have issues adding pics to my computer at work and this is where I blog from…

Ciao for now! And I’ll update you on my tootsie toe… when I know!

♡Missy

Me? Versatile? Why Thank You!

Thanks Kim from Aquarian Woman for the award *cheesy grin*

The rules of the award are as follows:

1. Add the award to your blog.
2. Thank the blogger who gave it to you and post a link to their blog.
3. Mention 7 random things about yourself.
4. List the rules.
5. Give the award to 15 bloggers.
6. Inform each of those 15 bloggers by leaving a comment on their blog.

So, 7 random facts… Hmmm

♡ other random updates ♡ and help with hair needed!!

 

I did in fact get brow-wowed. They are thinner this time, I guess I didn’t vocalise what I wanted enough. I didn’t have to wait as long as the last time, which was nice. I made it to Myer Melbourne from Chapel Street in half an hour on Public Transport during peak hour! Impressed? I am. What I wasn’t impressed about was the Sales Assistant who touched up my brow area, after the wax and her over-the-top-eager to sell manner. I merely asked what it was the she was putting on me, it was a pressed powder but before she even answered she asked if she should put it on my bill? Um, no. Firstly it was the wrong colour and secondly, it was the wrong colour. She couldn’t even match my colour right! I was like heck no am I trusting you to help me. Way too eager to just get me to buy it… Maybe actually try and sell me something I would want. The brow artist (yes) was super nice and my brows do look nice, I think/hope.

Please excuse that rogue hair (from my head that is, there's plenty of brow rogues there!)

Sorry for the shoddy shot, but I took this at the Benefit Counter.

Meet Shirley and Help me with my hair, pleeease!!

week three: Love / Hate

Loving my weigh in this morning… Nice pep up cure to Mondayitis.

Loving that I lost 1.1 kilos this week, taking my 3 week weight loss total to 5.2kgs!

Loving that eating well means feeling great.

Loving my cute new pastel coloured polka dotted dinnerware. Making meal times seem fun! Pics to come.

Loving that the simple task of cutting up an apple, makes it seem oh so much bigger.

Loving stationary. I am addicted. Always will be…

Hating that I found a stationary supplier that stocks all my favourite Korean goodies… at reasonable prices. I predict a splurge. 

Hating that I have to wait for a Pinterest invitation!

Loving going to the cinema with the BF. 

Loving the use of $7.50 movie vouchers acquired a few weeks ago. Yay for 90’s movies prices!!

Hating that my water bottle had been leaking throughout the entire movie in my bag.

Loving that it was only water.

Hating that water can and will stain my “water and stain repellent” leather bag. Waaah.

upside down bag shot

Loving that I found my leather conditioner, which cleans and nourishes. I knew I had seen it in my mess of a room. somewhere…

Loving that it actually worked. 2 treatments done, 1 more and my bag will be back to its' former glory!

Hating the thought of spending $3.50each for 3 mangoes on the weekend to find that they are bruised and smooshy.

Loving that I found 2 for $1.99 at my local-to-work grocer.

Hating the thought of lugging 4 mangoes home… On public transport. Dread. 

Hating that the sparkle of PT is wearing off already. My buses have been late like crazy! Last Thursday and Friday I didn’t get home until after 6… Over an hour travel time! Driving home only takes 15minutes! Unfair.

Loving that I found the Pinterest app for my iPhone to keep my amused while I wait for the bus.

Hating that it’s slightly buggy when you aren’t member.

Loving that I got my Pinterest invitation on Sunday. Yay. The app now loves me! (I have not pinned anything yet)

Loving that my baby boy, Smokey, loves his 10^th Birthday present and how as I was assembling it he was already swiping at the ball… Then the moment I put it on the floor *scratch, scratch, Scratch* ”Finally! I’ve been waiting for this!” *scratch, scratch, scratch* Last night I caught him asleep on it! Nawww.

I could have gone on forever with this format!

Toodles Noodles!

♡Missy

On ya bus

OMG guys… Guess what I did?! 

Caught Public Transport to workies!!! I’m sure that sounds like no biggie to most peeps, but for me, Miss “I don’t do PT,” it was a massive deal. I’m still a little shaky! Haha. Seriously though, I was nervous, excited and scared.

Best bit? I made it to work. On time!! Woop! (I am also notoriously known as Miss Never-on-time, but that's another story)

Aside from a couple of trips with my Mumsy lately on PT, I pretty much haven’t done Melbourne’s Public Transport since I got my License… in the year 2000!
I did use the Vancouver Public Transport when in Canada, but I had my BF with me, and it seemed like part of the tourist experience and was all about (or aboot, I should say) the Novelty.

I used to catch Public Transport to school. Ever since I was in Grade 3!!!! Yeh, grade 3?! I was itchin' to get my license. itchin'.

I started getting anxiety about 6 or so years ago when around too many people. I am/was (not sure yet) very very self-conscious… And being on PT, trapped, and not having my car in close proximity to go to escape and hide was a position I would never allow myself to get into. Even on nights out with friends, I would either be the designated driver or demand compulsory Taxi Cabs (I always call them Taxi Cabs… got it from my Pop, just like how I call Coles “Coles New World,” just like he used to. aww).

Why did I choose today to use Public Transport? 

Well, turns out my Car Park Company haven’t been directly debiting my monthly car park payments (as they had been the months prior), so my card was voided yesterday!!! Arghhhh!! I was on my way to exit and when I swiped it said ‘voided,’ when I spoke to the chap via the intercom, he said I hadn’t paid my bill and to just pay the normal car park fee… Um, I was already in the car park?! I couldn’t drive out and back in again to get a daily card and pay, now could I? He asked me how I had gotten in… Um, with my card, genius! He finally let me through. Phew. 

When I got home, I decided to check my pile of car park invoices… Uhm, payments haven’t been made for nearly 6 months!!! So, it’s like a $700 bill!! So, I had 3 choices;

♡ Pull $700 out of my bum, 

♡ Pay the $11.50 a day car park fee (full rate)

or

♡ Suck it up and use Public Transport

If I could have pulled the $700 from ‘back there’ I totes would have. But I tried and it didn’t work. Haha. So, I spent the remainder of the night mapping out my PT route! It was hard!! Especially when you aren’t well versed in the Public Transport system… *sighs 

Port Melbs is an awesome place to live, but unless you work in, or have a desire to go, the city, PT is quite limited. I work in Prahran, which is not that far, but in order to get there, I had to PT it to the city!! I am scared of the CITY!!! So today was a Double Scaredom Day!! PT aspect and hittin’ The Big Smoke! Eeeouch! 

Anyhoozy, I finally worked out the best route for me… It may not be the fastest or whatevs, but it is the most direct and simple. It only involves 2 buses (plus a twaddle across a road. a main road. scary), as opposed to the 13 billion train/tram changes that MetLink wanted me to take according the Journey Planner.

Also, I believe I have been telling myself some little wee porky pies in regards to how much I could potentially save by using PT. 

Using my monthly car park pass, it costs me $6.75 a day (not too shabby) but for some unknown reason I have always thought and verbalised that it was $5.50 a day. Façade No. 1. 

I usually put in $70 worth of Petroleum every 2 weeks (more or less, mostly less) nut never included that in my costing, I thought it was negligible. Façade No. 2. 

So, that takes my daily drive to work $13.75 a day-ish. Getting Pricey, really. On the plus side, it only takes me 30mins of my sweet precious time to get to work when driving and I value my alone time and privacy quite highly.

Onto PT; 

A monthly pass will cost me $112.56, which is $5.60 a day (week days only… So /20) and I technically get F R E E transport on weekends… And it only takes me 45 minutes! So, my sweet precious time is hardly gobbled up… And as for privacy and my Alone Time… Pish Posh! Turns out people watching is F U N! Haha. I also only listen to my iPhone in the car anyway, so earphones in and I was laughing; not literally, or I would have looked nutty but there was figurative laughing, that's for sure.

This adorable card holder I acquired to hold my Myki may or may not have sweetened the deal beyond comprehension. 

I do love a card. And a swipey card even more so… Top that with an adorably cute cardholder, sprinkled with Pandas, Hearts and a Cupcake, and finished off with Lashings of Pink?! I was S O L D!!

Did I mention it had a sparkle to it?? I didn't? Well it does! It has a sparkle to it... I love it!!

 P.S- I can and will work out some sort of payment arrangement with my Car Park Co. Just thought I’d mention that.

Also, just to get the legalities out of the way:

D I S C L A I M E R: The Novelty may or may not wear off this sparkly new obsession I have with the Public Transport System, my Myki card and/or People Watching. Time will tell. Today's results are not typical. Results may vary.

♡Missy

My new lifet (and no, that's not a typo)...

Well, we’re just over 2 weeks into the New Year, so I figured it was about time I pulled up my socks and got back into healthy eating. 

I am an emotional eater.

I have often heard that admitting you have a problem is the first step… Hmm, hasn’t stopped me from continuing to be an emotional eater. Hmph. I guess things to do with emotions aren’t as easily recified as just voicing the problem..  

Anyway, I’m going back on my “diet” (hate that word. really)… A lot of peeps who know me think it is too strict, but it is the only thing that works for me and fast. For some reason I cannot find a balance between eating well and eating terribly- well at least not yet. I plan to.

So, today is DAY ONE of my diet… Arghhh that word again, that’s it, I am forevermore changing it to lifet (geddit? diet = lifet… it’s my lifestyle change hybrid diet).

So, today is LIFET: Day One. 

I had to weigh and measure myself this morning. Not pretty. Fingers crossed some of it is just water weight and will bugger off swiftly. I am pretending I didn’t see the figures. I entered them in to my iPhone app and let the numbers disappear out of my head. If I can, I am going to not weigh again until next Monday… I used to be a daily weigher. 

I wasn’t going to. But I checked my phone and changed my Lily Slim ticker on my sidebar to reflect what I need to lose. Stay Tuned for my next Monday weigh in!! 

The first week loss is always the biggest... Bring on the motivation!!!!

Christmas Grinch...

Thanks for your comment on my last post, LH

I totally understand how you feel! Family drama is one of the hardest to deal esp when I see friends with families who are extremely close knit and I think, why am I not like them? But now I've pretty much given up on having any sort of close knit relationship and I'm just taking baby steps and seeing how things go and being civil.

And with your animal thing, if I were you, I would have just taken them to my new place. I cried when I had to put my cats in the cattery when our apartment flooded. I know I'm a legit crazy cat lady. I totally miss my babies when I leave the place!

I actually started to write a reply to your comment, but then it got massive and I realised, heck, this is a post all on its' own.

My sister knows how much Bender means to me, which is precisely why she forced me to return him. I did technically steal him and had planned to keep him, and I even thought I'd gotten away with it without much fuss. But then she used my nephews as leverage for me to return him (I had even asked my nephews if it was okay, and they seriously didn't care!) and she would have gotten my Dad involved and why would he, or anyone, support me, when she would say my nephews miss their cat?! It's blindingly clear she's doing it to hurt me and she couldn’t care less how the cat feels, or even how her children feel (like I said, I asked, and they didn't mind). She is not an animal person. She's barely even a people person.   

I literally think about him all the time. I too am a legit crazy cat lady... My sister knows that too- She used to say I was the crazy cat lady from The Simpsons and even gave me the figurine, which I think was intended to be insulting... Pfft, I'm proud of it, it's sitting on my desk right now, as we speak- or I type I mean. I love my pets and I’m not ashamed, but I couldn’t let her keep using them as a way to get to me… Well, it is still getting to me (obviously), but I can’t let her know that. I know I sound crazy… but I’m not being overly dramatic, I promise. She wants to hurt me She wants to punish for me for not letting her stand over me anymore.

And proud of it!

I hate myself or not being able to stand up to her and take Bender... I'm exhausted by her and all the drama and abuse… It fuels her, she loves it- thrives off it. Lives for it. Even now, my anger is all built up inside of me, it makes me feel ill. I'm not even going to Christmas this year- cutting off my nose to spite my myself, I guess...Yep, I'll be on my own for Christmas and I'll be the only one who notices. I wouldn't dare inflict the terrible mood I will be in, due to missing out on my usual family Christmas, on anyone else so I won't be going anywhere. I cannot stand her and don't want to be anywhere near her. I will explode if I do. She'll use my absence against me, but I've gotten to the point where she can say whatever she wants about me now. I’m over it. The people who really know me (incl. family) will know what she says is complete bulldust, and if they don't already know it, why should I let it bother me.  Saddest part about that… I think my own Father will be someone who will believe all she says. I’m sick of being second best to everyone.

I'm so hurt by all of this... Bender being kept from me is just the dagger in my heart.

♡Missy

Giving up...

I had yet another bad weekend.

I went to go get my cat, Smokey, from my old home, and also decided to take the other cat as well. I did technically cat-nap him… But for the past 4 years that I have lived there, it has been ME who has fed and loved him. Me who saved him from being tortured by my nephews… It was with me and on my bed where he slept every night. And it was my lap that he curled up on in the evenings. My sister actually let a complete stranger “adopt” his mother, and it was clear it was me who was affected most by the death of his brother… I have lived with and LOVED that cat for the past 4 out of his 5 years on this earth. Unfortunately for me, my sister knows this… And on the night of our fight, she threatened me that I would never see him or the puppy again… Looks like her threat is becoming reality.