Twenty-Twelve

Hello and Happy New Year!!

Sorry for my blog-absence! Looks like I procrastinated actioning my New Year Resolution to cease procrastinating! haha. Nah, I don't really do New Year Resolutions... I make resolutions 24/7, and being a New Year doesn't really help me stick to them any better... It adds more pressure, if anything.

Having said that though, I am feeling pretty positive about 2012. I mean, after the 2011 I had (especially the latter half) things can only look up (touch wood, fingers crossed, etc etc!).

source: we heart it.

I do believe you make your own luck, but I also believe sometimes nothing seems to go your way, no matter how much luck you try and conjure up.

I also believe that things happen for a reason... and maybe, jussssst maybe my sister going bat-sh!t crazy on me gave me the push I need to get where I want to be. That is not to say I am in any way grateful to her for that though! I am grateful for myself for that. It took a helluva lot of courage for me to leave, and it took an alcohol-saturated Deep & Meaningful with an old bestie to have that pointed out to me and for me to start to believe it.

I still feel bad... still broken. I still fall asleep wondering if my beloved Bender Bear is missing me cos I sure am missing him, or if he will even still remember me. I feel tremendous guilt for leaving. Leaving Bender, the Puppy, my Nephews, my Dad. But I could. not. stay there anymore. And that is that. I was suffocating, my head held down underwater... And actually, truth be told, I had been forced to practice holding my breath for years... Existing in Pause Land, waiting for my chance to break the surface, take a deep breath and finally get the fudge out of there!

Anyhooooo, not to dwell too much... Instead of New Years Resolutions I'm making New Years Revelations!! Hehe

Moving on...

I want to introduce you all to my new 2012 diary. My first ever Moleskin! I have wanted one for quite sometime.

Obviously, I have a bit of a penchant for Pink and if something comes in Pink, I want it. I want it bad. The only size Moleskin in Pink was the "extra small" size. I thought, hmm how small could it really be?!... Well, it's small... Extra small! I even thought it was too small! But now that I am over the initial shock, I like it. The size is actually adorable!

I had to send pics to people to ascertain their opinion whether it was too small-- hence my hand in the pics for size referencing.

Cute nails, right?!

The inside

The inside is actually quite roomy. And the space to write for each day is actually larger than what i coped with in my 2011 diary! So, um... Yay!

I purchased my Moleskin from The Book Depository and I'm super happy with a) the price (practically 1/2 of what it would have cost in an Australian store) and b) the fast shipping, which was FREE. I ordered it on the 23rd of December, and it arrived before the New Year! Woop Woo!!

Ohh and I had to, I repeat had to pick up the cutest little crystal-topped pencil to match my new diary... Check it...

Till next we speak!!

Oh and PS: I didn't spend Christmas or New Years Eve like I usually do (ie: with my family), so it kind of feels like it never happened. I will update more on what I got up to I'm my next post.

♡Missy