♡ Week Eleven ♡

Hello my lovelies…

Sooooo, I am still struggling. Those damn crackers are too damn tasty, I cannot resist. I am doing everything else right- aside from a little extra fruit. So, it’s really disappointing that I can’t control myself when it comes to my crackers. Pretty sure I could be classified as a cracker addict. Ha.

I did weigh myself yesterday (Monday, weigh-in day) but couldn’t really focus on the number through the tears. I kid, I kid… But I saw the number and was all “Bahhh, {insert expletive}”… So I did not record it. I know it wasn’t pretty though. 

I’m thinking it’s time to throw in the towel. The hunger pangs are too much and I am obviously craving more carbs or I wouldn’t be able to devour a whole packet of Kraft Premium Crackers. A. Whole. Packet. I shudder to think how bad that is for me… Although I noticed it said ‘naturally cholesterol free’… but still.

There is a 2nd phase to the diet… Which is re-introducing different foods back into your diet, in a slow and controlled manner- so you don’t get a shock to your system… And it supposedly maintains your weight. Well, not really supposedly… I have done it before and yes my weight stabilised even though I was eating like quadruple the amount. The issue is, you’re “supposed” to do the 2nd phase on a clean slate, as in, having not been being naughty… Like I have been. D’oh! You’re supposed to be ‘clean’ for 2 weeks before the 2nd phase. Can I handle that?? Thus far I haven’t lasted a day without overdoing the crackers. Eeep.

Hmm, I kind of don’t know what to do. I am not at the weight I should be. I am at least 4 kilos away, but I think I need to start eating like a normal human being. Hmm. My mood is being affected. I am a b!tch and a half.

I’m craving everything… And I’m afraid I’m going to binge like a mofo… Surely that would be worse than starting to re-introduce food without being perfect for 2 weeks? Aside from OD’ing on crackers and fruit, I have still been 100%. Hmm, yeh, I think it is time.

♡Missy